Holidays!!!!!!

Haha...finally!!!! It is holidays!!!! I am so happy. I have to wake up so early in the morning, and take the stupid bus, and travels for about an hour, and to go to that school and sitting at that boring classroom and almost half asleep, and sittting there for about 8 hours, and sometimes I even have to stay in school till 6pm to finish all my assignments, and when I reach home, it is already 7.30pm.

School days are always boring. Sometimes when I look at the question, and I think for almost half a day, I still could not solve it. Because of my super lousy english, Sometimes what teachers said, and sometimes what classmates teach me, I am still very confused. But if I still said that I do not understand, maybe they will get very pissed off and very angry. Ido not want them to get angry, and thinks that I am a stupid person, or whatever comes to their mind. So I said that I have understood, and still, trying to figure out what it really means.

The teachers always confuses me more. Because teachers have super good english standard, and they always confuses me more. I am good at my second language and my main language, and I am very weak at english. I hate studying english, but I have no choice. As english is a international language.

Everytime when I learn english, I think of british, and then I begin to hate british. If british do not become strong, and conquer almost the entire world, we do not hav to learn english anymore. During world war 2, our country is very very useless. If not maybe we can have our own choice of languages, and we do not have to speak even a single english word.

I love chinese. I even had a dream of writing a chinese novel. This dream had been gone at secondary 4 as I think that it is almost impossible, and it is better to face reality. But when I am in College, I meet a few foreign friends, and they told me that their dream is also writing novel, and they had been writing several novels, but they did not publish out.

Although I am not born in china, but I have always love chinese martial arts novels and the story of it, and as well as the TV shows. My dream is to write one of those novels.

The reason why I would want to write those novels is because when I am free, I always love to day dream about all these stuffs. Because our family is poor, we could hardly have any entertainment in our house. I always admire those people who have computers and TV games at that time. But in our house, we do not have anything at home at all. Luckily we still have TV at home. Other than TV, nothing else at home. After watching TV, I somehow get some inspiration there, and started imagining many things. Slowly, it developed into a story in my mind. Since my chinese compositions is also very good in class, so that is why I decided to write chinese novels. I also imagined a character in my mind, and imagining the character is me. This character had been always in my mind, and walk through with me in my childhood. Writing this novels will make me feel that my childhood is not a waste, and also remind me of my childhood.

I do not know whether I will succeed in writing it. I have done a few plannings about the story, but I have not yet started writing them. I have not touched chinese for years, and I am afraid that if I do not start now, my chinese will get weaker and weaker.

When I look at the chinese martial arts novels content, I feel that their chinese standards are far too high. It is not that I cannot understand, but it is the way they expressed it. It is very good, and I could tell that their chinese level is very high.

I can never be their match, and most chinese novelist are from china, and they definitely has very good chinese. I am not from china, and I am not born in china. I am very scared that my chinese skills does not meet the requirement. Afterall, my chinese is not the highest in school or whatever. I do not know what I should do now. Should I go after my dreams of writing chinese novels, or just step onto reality path?

放学

我今天是第一次以华语来写博客。我只想试试我的华语水准。我已经有两年没接触华语了，我怕我的华语水准会慢慢地退步，慢慢地被淡忘。:P



下课了。我踏出了这个又闷又冷的课室，并朝校门走去。我们的校园实在是非常大，从课室走到校门也必须花上好几分钟。虽然课室和校门的距离是在同一间校园里，感觉上我仿佛得走上几公里。


这个学校像个冰库，冷得要命。我冷得身体都一直在发抖了，快被冻僵了。 可是还是撑着最后一口气，走向校门。


终于抵达校门了。我推开了校门，踏出了校园。 我，又从获自由了。 阳光照在了我冰冷的身体，给了我温暖。我仿佛投入了大自然的怀抱。


我朝巴士站走去，看见了好多活跃的学生们高高兴兴地走向了巴士和火车总站。多数学生都是和朋友一起成群走回家，唯有我是自己一人。虽然是自己一人，可是我并不寂寞, 反而觉得好自由。如果有人伴随我一起走，也许就没有那么自由了，因为我们不能随心所欲。


到了巴士站，我坐在巴士站的一个长椅的空位上，等着巴士的到来。终于, 第一辆巴士来了。那辆巴士里头非常拥挤， 不过一些急着想回家的学生们还是拼命地挤上了巴士。我的时间不急，所以我便继续等着另外一辆巴士。


几分钟后，另一辆巴士终于来了。这辆巴士里头只有少过十个人，并不拥挤，我于是便上了这辆巴士。

到了巴士总站，我必须换另外一辆巴士才能到我家。我走到了我要踏的巴士的号码，等着那辆能走到我家附近的巴士，并在排队站等着那辆巴士的到来。不过这个号码的巴士有非常多人在排队。有时候过了三四辆巴士了都还轮不到我们上巴士。所以我通常不排队，不过我也不插队。


那辆巴士来了，我走到了巴士入口的门旁等着上车。这种方法并不算插队，因为当巴士快要满了，有些在排队的人就宁可不上车了。他们宁可等另外一辆巴士，也不愿意一直站着。因为只要等另外一辆巴士，他们就能第一个上到了巴士，所以根本不用担心没位子坐。


虽然我的这个方法未必能坐到位子，不过我宁可快点上到巴士，也不要花时间在那里排长龙。


巴士上刚好还有一个靠窗的位子，我于是便坐在那里。巴士必须走上一小时，所以在巴士上，我每次都是看着窗外的风景。 有些人却等不上一小时，便在巴士上睡着了。


在遥远的路途上，我望着远处的一片草地，和望着一望无际的蓝天，我幻想着自己走在一个没人的地方，自由自在的。有时却是胡思乱想。 想着想着，时间很快就到了。


我终于到站了。我下了车，往家的方向走去。到了家门口，我喊着，“我回来了。” 之后，妈妈开门了。我踏进了我那舒畅的家。 还是家的感觉最好了。 :)

An Interesting Dream

Last night, I had an interesting dream. In this dream, I am in the world of RPG games. It is not that I have a lot of RPG games to play, but I am in it. I am experiencing RPG game life in this world.

At first I dream that I am in a journey with my brother, and we are travelling all around. We had 2 spirits travelling with us. They are in the form of animals. We went around and having fun with them.

Then I meet my classmates, and then my brother dismissed me and go back home. So I begin with my journey with them. Then we went into a shop selling chopsticks. The chopsticks are quite beautiful. Suddenly, I see a staff with a toad on top of it. It looks very nice and cool, and I feel like holding this staff for my journey.

But that staff is not free. It is the most expensive thing in the shop. I am wearing a jacket at that time, so I hide it into my jacket without being noticed, and I successfully stolen the staff. The staff itself also contain a spirit, known as the toad spirit.

After that, we all headed to the most dangerous tournament, where all the strongest fighters gather there. I went there, and I see the girl I like. I still have feelings for her at that time, but actually, not anymore, in real life.

Suddenly, one guy wanted to challenge me, but I am not joining the tournament. My spirit then asks me to fight, and asks me to press doen all the 3 spirits at the same time with 3 different fingers. They turn into very small at that time, so I do as they said. Then they combined with the staff and turn into a ring, known as the "Ring of the 3 spirits".

After they turned into the ring, I am a little disappointed, because I do not know whether the spirits will still return back from the ring or not, as they already turned into ring. That spirit had been together with me for very long throughout, so I miss them.

With this ring, I am invincible. I managed to defeat everyone in the tournament. Then I take a train returning back home, looking at the ring, hoping my spirits will come out of the ring again, and to continue our journey as usual. Then I awake.

This is a very interesting dream, and it is the first time I dream I am in a RPG world. I write in this blog so that it remains as a memory.

Recently, I have been dreaming about strange things, but sometimes the dream goes really strange, but I am too stupid and I do not even realised that everything goes strange. I think I finally found the answer why. Actually in dream, we do not think at all. The reason is because when we are sleeping, every parts of our body starts to hibernate. Therefore, when we are dreaming, it only provides an image of our memories and thoughts, and perhaps acting as a flashback of events. But the fact is we do not think at all in dreams. Because our brain is also hibernating. Sometimes I really feel very strange of why some dreams does not even reflect our life at all. Sometimes I dream that I am in a unfamiliar places, and even dream of someone who I have never seen before. Dream comes too strangely. Some people even said that dreams are memories of the before life, and these before life memories just come together with us after we are reborn.

If I am a researcher, I hope that I can do more research on dreams, and to find out more about it, as sometimes, I am really curious about how dreams really come about.

The life of unfairness

This world is full of unfairness. There are people who are rich, and there are people who are really poor. There are people who live happily, and there are people who live miserably in life. There are people who life in war in their entire life because of the place that they are born in. There are people who is born to be good looking, and there are people born to be not perfect and abnormal.

If only there are fairness in this world, then I believe that this world would be in total peace. If everything is fair, there will be no rich and poor. Everybody will live happily. There will be no war and no racism, and everybody will not hate each other. Everybody will born to be perfect, and there is no imperfect.

If only this world is fair, then there will be total happiness in this world. We are living in the world without fairness, and there is no fairness that we are living in if we think really carefully.

Why does not the god grant us with fairness, and let us live in this world happily, and without any disappointment?

First Labororatory practical lesson

Today is Monday, 11 May, 2009. Today is our first practical lesson. Few days ago, I bought a lab coat. It is for school use. Our school wants us to buy, and they do not want to borrow us. They just want us students to suffer.

Today, my teacher said that we had to be in school by 8.30am, instead of usual 9am. So I step out of my house before 7am, and reach there on time. At first I am worry whether I am late or not. Surprisingly, the lab is empty. I see another classmates, so I ask him where are all the classmates. He said that they have not arrived yet, and he said that the class starts at 9.15am.

After hearing this, I feel so angry. Angry about teachers, as well as students. After that, with some explanation, then I found out that it is some misunderstanding that someone heard the wrong information. I am a kind person, so I forgive them.

When the class start, we are all waiting outside the lab. I asked a girl to help me hold my lab coat, and I am going to the toilet for a while. After I came out, she is gone. At that time, I started getting a bit worried. I search for the girl nervously, because I cannot go in if I do not have the lab coat.

I nervously look for her around. I asked my classmates whether they seen her, but I am so stupid. I forgot her name. I actually forget my own classmate's name.

I guessed the girl would have already gone in, but I need the lab coat in order to go in. How could she go in first? So I nervously go around and walk around nervously, look around, and yet speechless when people ask me questions.

Maybe I am too nervous, I even mistaken another girl as that girl. When I go and ask her, she is confused, because she is the wrong person. She did not hold my lab coat. Classmates ask me where is my lab coat, and yet I am totally speechless. I forget the girl's name, and I could not ask them about the girl. The teacher is inside the classroom and I could not explain to her. I feel very hopeless and useless that time.

Finally, teacher said that my lab coat is with my classmates, and she allowed me to enter. I feel relieved that teacher let me in, if not I might not know what to say to teacher either, because I forgot her name, and the worst thing is I even mistaken another classmates as her. This is so embarrassing.

The lab lesson is quite interesting. We did about bacterias and stuffs. This is my first time stepping into the lab. But the lesson is quite confusing.

I have finally submitted my project summary. I am still waiting for reply. Hopefully they can accept my summary.

My horrible school

I hate my school. Yesterday I tried to apply financial assistance from the school. They give me a form, and I filled them up, and I give it into the school office. When I give it to them, they said that what I give them is not enough. They still require some other documents.I am a little unhappy, but still, I went to prepare the documents, and plan to submit it the next day.

The Next day, I have already prepared the documents. I give it to the office once again. The office girl said there is still some missing documents. Today is already the deadline, she ask me to go online to finish all the documents. But I do not wish to complete it anymore. I am feeling very pissed off.

This school is trying to make our life so hard. Next week there is a practical lesson. For the science practical lesson, we need a robe for science practical. Until now, I haven buy the robe. The robe is quite expensive. I really do not feel like buying it. Why cannot the school just supply us? The school can just lend us, as we do not wear it everytime, like school uniform. It is just being used for practical. We do not have practical lesson every single day, and I only have 2 more years to graduate. Why this school has to make our life so difficult?

I really hate this school. But there is nothing I can do. I just hope that time passes fast, and quickly complete the 2 years. Then I will be going to the hell army. I heard that people died in army before. I am not afraid that there are going to be ghost there, but I am scared that the hell army is going to be extremely torturing, as there are even soldiers die during training.

My stupid and miserable life.