First day of school, first day of hell

Today is monday, which is also the start of my hell school. In the morning, I have to wake up very very early in the morning. I feel very tired, but I have no choice.

Today when I am taking the bus, I accidentally put extra money into the bus tin. I regretted that. Because the bus is very crowded, and there are still a lot of people behind me, so I have to be a little hurry, if not people behind me will scold me.

After paying extra money, I do not extra benefit at all. There is no seats in the bus left. So I have no choice, but to stand. The bus is very very crowded, and I even hardly have some space, and I can hardly move too.

After an hour, I reached my school. I walk into my school, and trying to find my new class. Before entering the classroom, I have a little stomachache, so I went into the toilet. After a few minutes, I am feeling more comfortable, and I search for my new class.

After finding my new class, I walked into my new class. I see all unfamiliar faces, I tried to relax myself, and not feel nervous towards these classmates, as I do not know how they are like, whether they are gangsters or not.

I make a glance around my class and see that these classmates does not look really bad, and there are no gangster faces around, so I feel a little relief. But what I really hope is to hope that there can be a weak student in class, so that I can have some positions in my class.

I am a very quiet person, so today, it is still the same of course. I did not talk in class, but I pretended that I am looking for informations in the team. I really wanted to say something to make them feel that I have done at least something, but I am afraid that my points I contributed might be unnecessary to them.

Nothing much I had do in school today. I feel that I am not doing any work. This school is really not for quiet people like me. At first I can go to other schools, but maybe because other school's slots have no more, so they put me into this school. My friend has the same result as me, but yet he can go into a very good school, but I cannot go to the good school. I feel that life is really very unfair for me.

Everybody says that my school is the most lousiest school, and they come to this school because they do not have a choice. This school is not even in my choice.

In this school, we have to do teamwork and presentation. I am weak at these 2 things. I am a very quiet person so teamwork is definitely not for me. Presentation requires speaking too. My life is very miserable in this school.

Today, there is a classmate who said to me, " Are you always that quiet?" She said it so loud everyone look at me. I replied with a yes, but I do not really know whether it is even the appropriate answer. I do not know what to say when encountered with this question. Life is going to be more hard in my class now, as everyone already knows that I am very quiet person.

I really regret coming to this school. I never regretted studying, but I regret coming to this school. I really wish that time can reverse. I want to be switched with my friend. I want to do more better in my exam to qualify to better school. But all is too late now. I can only regret now.