First Labororatory practical lesson

Today is Monday, 11 May, 2009. Today is our first practical lesson. Few days ago, I bought a lab coat. It is for school use. Our school wants us to buy, and they do not want to borrow us. They just want us students to suffer.

Today, my teacher said that we had to be in school by 8.30am, instead of usual 9am. So I step out of my house before 7am, and reach there on time. At first I am worry whether I am late or not. Surprisingly, the lab is empty. I see another classmates, so I ask him where are all the classmates. He said that they have not arrived yet, and he said that the class starts at 9.15am.

After hearing this, I feel so angry. Angry about teachers, as well as students. After that, with some explanation, then I found out that it is some misunderstanding that someone heard the wrong information. I am a kind person, so I forgive them.

When the class start, we are all waiting outside the lab. I asked a girl to help me hold my lab coat, and I am going to the toilet for a while. After I came out, she is gone. At that time, I started getting a bit worried. I search for the girl nervously, because I cannot go in if I do not have the lab coat.

I nervously look for her around. I asked my classmates whether they seen her, but I am so stupid. I forgot her name. I actually forget my own classmate's name.

I guessed the girl would have already gone in, but I need the lab coat in order to go in. How could she go in first? So I nervously go around and walk around nervously, look around, and yet speechless when people ask me questions.

Maybe I am too nervous, I even mistaken another girl as that girl. When I go and ask her, she is confused, because she is the wrong person. She did not hold my lab coat. Classmates ask me where is my lab coat, and yet I am totally speechless. I forget the girl's name, and I could not ask them about the girl. The teacher is inside the classroom and I could not explain to her. I feel very hopeless and useless that time.

Finally, teacher said that my lab coat is with my classmates, and she allowed me to enter. I feel relieved that teacher let me in, if not I might not know what to say to teacher either, because I forgot her name, and the worst thing is I even mistaken another classmates as her. This is so embarrassing.

The lab lesson is quite interesting. We did about bacterias and stuffs. This is my first time stepping into the lab. But the lesson is quite confusing.

I have finally submitted my project summary. I am still waiting for reply. Hopefully they can accept my summary.

My horrible school

I hate my school. Yesterday I tried to apply financial assistance from the school. They give me a form, and I filled them up, and I give it into the school office. When I give it to them, they said that what I give them is not enough. They still require some other documents.I am a little unhappy, but still, I went to prepare the documents, and plan to submit it the next day.

The Next day, I have already prepared the documents. I give it to the office once again. The office girl said there is still some missing documents. Today is already the deadline, she ask me to go online to finish all the documents. But I do not wish to complete it anymore. I am feeling very pissed off.

This school is trying to make our life so hard. Next week there is a practical lesson. For the science practical lesson, we need a robe for science practical. Until now, I haven buy the robe. The robe is quite expensive. I really do not feel like buying it. Why cannot the school just supply us? The school can just lend us, as we do not wear it everytime, like school uniform. It is just being used for practical. We do not have practical lesson every single day, and I only have 2 more years to graduate. Why this school has to make our life so difficult?

I really hate this school. But there is nothing I can do. I just hope that time passes fast, and quickly complete the 2 years. Then I will be going to the hell army. I heard that people died in army before. I am not afraid that there are going to be ghost there, but I am scared that the hell army is going to be extremely torturing, as there are even soldiers die during training.

My stupid and miserable life.

School of Hell

This morning, as usual, I go to school. While I am on my way to school, I feel like I am on my way to hell.

As I am walking into the school gate, I imagined walking into the hell gate. Then I see a very big and very fat guy, who looks like a executioner. Then I see a person carrying a very big bag, which seems like his bag is full of dangerous weapons.

I continued my way into my class. The teacher will be the judge of hell, and when I step into the class, judgement and punishment awaits me.

I feel that my life in school is horrible, especially with presentations. I really hate presentations. I rather die to have presentations.

Today after school, the whole class had gone for a talk. The talk is about our project. After hearing the talk, I feel very scared. The project sounds very scary. Not only we are going to write 2000 words, but we cannot copy from websites too,as there is a program to check.

I am a little worry at this moment. How am I going to survive? Can I pass this project? If I dfail this project, I will not be graduating anymore. It is so scary.

Also, we have to complete certain number of talks before we can graduate. My talk is not completed yet. There is still a very long way to go. I feel very sad. Why does this school has to set all those funny and useless school rules?

I really hate these stupid rules. This is a stupid school. I hate this school. Life is very unfair. I should not even come to this school at all.

Lost of talent

Today,we are doing microbiology in school. The reason is because we are doing science course, so everything we do are all science. Today's lesson is quite interesting, because I learned a lot about bacteria, and I have learned how they work.

Today as usual, I am very quiet. I did not talk within my group. In my team, there are 2 foreign girls, and 2 fatties, one male one female. The most quiet ones is me. They are all talking about the discussions, except me, I am a loner.

During the second break, I am being given a task to do for my presentation, and I have to find research on it. I am doing about the structure of the bacteria, the shapes of the bacteria, and its functions.

Today I am very hardworking i my work,and I focus mainly on the structure of the cell, and I did a lot of efforts in researching it.

After finding all the researches, I feel very confident of doing my presentation, and hope to show some impression towards the teacher.

After I completed everything, my teammate suddenly said that one of my slides is similar to hers, and she wants to do mine. But tht is the slide I am putting most efforts on. If she takes it, I will be left nothing much to say for presentation.

I agreed to let her take the slides. Maybe I am out of my mind to give it to her. I done a lot of preparations on this slides. If I give it to her, all efforts will be gone.

Maybe I am just too kind. I actually give it to her. In order not to waste all my efforts, I told her that there are notes below the slides which I have typed out. Those are all the researches I have made.

During presentation, she did not say any of my points at all. I am very angry, and I regretted giving it to her. But al is too late. If I am presenting that slide, I could have say more. Maybe she thinks that I am too quiet, so she thinks that it is better to say it herself. But I wanted to improve myself, I want to try to adapt to this stupid school environment.

Thinking that I could greatly express my talent at this good chance, but I actually throw it away. I do not know if there will still be other chances of me expessing my talent. Maybe this is my fate. Life is fated that I will not do well in anything.

I really hate school. There is no way I am able to adapt to this school.

Miserable school life

My school life is so miserable. When I am sitting in this classroom, I feel very lonely and ignored. Why does life has to be so unfair to me? Why do I have to come to this school that I do not even wish to come at all? What have I done wrong?

I have a friend who has the same result as me. But he is able to go to a better school, bu only me, I have to come to this lousy school to suffer. This school has presentations everyday. I really hate presentations. I feel like dying in school. Everyday I feel the same.

In this class, I am very quiet. I know you all my think that there is nothing wrong, but the problem is that this school cannot be quiet at all, because we have presentations and teamworks. If you did not study in this school, you will never know how I reall feel. In this class, or rather in this school, I really feel like a criminal.

I really hate this school, and I really regret coming to this school. If only I had study harder in secondary school. Lessons in secondary schools are so easy. What we only have to do is to sit in the class and listen to what teacher is talking. I really regret for not listening to the teachers carefully and attentively.

If only at that time I had pay full attention to my secondary school teachers, maybe I will be getting more better results, and I will be going to better schools rather than coming to this school to suffer.

The mouse dream

Last night, I had a dream. I dream that I have a pet mouse again. Few days ago, I also make a dream, and I also dream that I have a pet mouse. I do not know why I keep having the mouse dream. Is the dream trying to tell me something?

My house do not have any pet mouse, or I did not kill any mouse or torture any mouse, why do I keep having mouse dream?

Recently I keep having a lot of dreams. Maybe I think a lot in day time, and imagine a ot in day time.

Today in school, the teacher release me at 8pm, and I reach home at 9pm. That stupid teacher said that I do not understand the lesson at all, and he make a few of us stayed back till 8pm. I have never ever go home so late ever. These stupid teachers. If they are inside an empty room, I am going to lock them inside, and make them stay overnight in that school. School is a really horrible place to me.

My presentations is once again very lousy. I really hte presentations. I wish that this school will not have presentations, but I know it is wishful thinking, because this school is also famous of its presentations. It is said to be the only school which had presentations every single day.

I really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really hate this school.

First day of school, first day of hell

Today is monday, which is also the start of my hell school. In the morning, I have to wake up very very early in the morning. I feel very tired, but I have no choice.

Today when I am taking the bus, I accidentally put extra money into the bus tin. I regretted that. Because the bus is very crowded, and there are still a lot of people behind me, so I have to be a little hurry, if not people behind me will scold me.

After paying extra money, I do not extra benefit at all. There is no seats in the bus left. So I have no choice, but to stand. The bus is very very crowded, and I even hardly have some space, and I can hardly move too.

After an hour, I reached my school. I walk into my school, and trying to find my new class. Before entering the classroom, I have a little stomachache, so I went into the toilet. After a few minutes, I am feeling more comfortable, and I search for my new class.

After finding my new class, I walked into my new class. I see all unfamiliar faces, I tried to relax myself, and not feel nervous towards these classmates, as I do not know how they are like, whether they are gangsters or not.

I make a glance around my class and see that these classmates does not look really bad, and there are no gangster faces around, so I feel a little relief. But what I really hope is to hope that there can be a weak student in class, so that I can have some positions in my class.

I am a very quiet person, so today, it is still the same of course. I did not talk in class, but I pretended that I am looking for informations in the team. I really wanted to say something to make them feel that I have done at least something, but I am afraid that my points I contributed might be unnecessary to them.

Nothing much I had do in school today. I feel that I am not doing any work. This school is really not for quiet people like me. At first I can go to other schools, but maybe because other school's slots have no more, so they put me into this school. My friend has the same result as me, but yet he can go into a very good school, but I cannot go to the good school. I feel that life is really very unfair for me.

Everybody says that my school is the most lousiest school, and they come to this school because they do not have a choice. This school is not even in my choice.

In this school, we have to do teamwork and presentation. I am weak at these 2 things. I am a very quiet person so teamwork is definitely not for me. Presentation requires speaking too. My life is very miserable in this school.

Today, there is a classmate who said to me, " Are you always that quiet?" She said it so loud everyone look at me. I replied with a yes, but I do not really know whether it is even the appropriate answer. I do not know what to say when encountered with this question. Life is going to be more hard in my class now, as everyone already knows that I am very quiet person.

I really regret coming to this school. I never regretted studying, but I regret coming to this school. I really wish that time can reverse. I want to be switched with my friend. I want to do more better in my exam to qualify to better school. But all is too late now. I can only regret now.